..a grey outlook..

disturbia.

where art thou?

hiding

away in the dark

behind the shadows

beneath it all

dusk is coming

falling fast.

one's lover

has walked away

escaped

what is escape?

fear

hate

worry

hiding from

yourself

from the others

pull your head

up above

the water

breathe

in

out

in

out

keep going

love

will come

in time

don't try to find

love;

keep hoping

hope is

everlasting

the pianostein with cover :)



what i'm trying to CONQUER





unveiling of the keys :P








slowly getting back in touch with the pianolover

wrists still die..but.. it's getting better.. slowly!

watched ponyo on friday night











was awesome :D so cute.. but.. yeah.. there many 'underlying' meanings and the like :)

i blogged about my weekend in my previous entry :)

The weather has been beautiful lately :)

Ah, I was looking through my photos from my gold coast trip back in september :)



the sky was :O beautiful :) yeahhh :D

anyways.. i'm going to watch up soon-ish -- 11am.. going to use my RACV card - $11 tickets :) not bad

yes

today was one of those :) great days :) yeahhhh :) lovely to the max --- the gorgeous weather probly helped :P hehe

wahooooooooooooooooooooooooble :D :D :D:D: D

i just finished my final assignment :D yeah

last night i completed my 2 easy essays .. leaving the big one for the weekend.. which i somehow managed to finish!! i'm excited!! :D

no more essays to stress over for EVER. or at least a long time :P haha :) YAY :D

just really hope i pass everything.. :D :D :D :D

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :D

ok
so
tomorrow = classroom relships presentation (60%)
thursday = mock interview (hurdle) + portfolio submission (50%)
next monday = bring 4006 ass to class, final due date = next fri

so.. right now = looking through presentation for classroom relships + script for the presentation so i know what i'm doing//what the others should be doing << that's what i should be doing NOW.. but. i'm finding it hard to concentrate.. as we all are i guess.. i'm in no unique position

i missed a couple of calls today from schools.. who knows what they were going to ask.. when i called back.. no one could tell me who it was that might have called me.

oh well.

i haven't been doing much work with chinese lately either.. feel really bad about my group.. letting them down x_O.. bohah.

*sigh*

am i ready to go out and work next year?

i think i'm just applying.. and.. i guess.. chucking myself out there next year.. is what i really need

i've been so tempted to apply for overseas positions.. but.. i know that i've said.. STAY HERE FIRST... kk ? :)

how do people actually 'up' their motivation levels? hmmm...

haven't exercised in ages

tennis .. first time last night in like a month x_O horrible.. and the body aint lookin good.. worse than the usual x_O bohah.. 10 days .. i'll start to do something about that + the state of my room. .. it's rather horrible x_O bohah.

well.. how do you do?

not long to go

10 days now.

4 tasks + applications

not long.

time to go.

i think he got a haircut :P

acknowledgement of our last few lectures//

lecturer just came back from south africa :O
*amazing* *transformative*

sorry

was just taking notes on my notepad document

he's now finished his travelogue << ?? and gonig onto liteature.. kk.. back to note taking


it's been pretty good


i dno if i should publicise my blogs again or not... hmhah.. rss feeds.. hmhah..

i seem to blog more when i am stressed :P

maybe i'll stay in melbourne  .. *sighhhh*

i'm resisting the temptation to log into facebook this morning :)

trying to anyway :)

hopefully i won't log into the bladdy thing until tonight... won't have time anyways i guess.. got class 10-5, then a thingy at uni 5-6.30pm

usually i have a break 1-2pm << but we'll be 'polishing' off our grp presentation (presenting at 3pm!) during that time :)

so yes. resisting the FB-ness.. shouldn't be TOO difficult :)

mm. i've noticed that not many people update their blogs now.. i've updated my blogger acc - just now and then since my practicum (actually.. only once.. but.. it was recent!)

i went to the gold coast just over a week ago with some high school mates... it was good... but.. coming back to melbourne was like me jumping into that freezing cold pool... it was ... shock x_O bohahism.... have to present my portfolio today + have our maths group presentation + our english assignment is due this week.. < i've "finished" these things... but they're pretty half-assed.. *sigh*.. not good at all.. same with applications.. we probly should be going prety hardcore with them now.. but yeh.. i'm finding it really hard to actually write down my responses to the 'key selection criteria' that all the govt schools have... x_O not good... bohah... St Helena's (co-ed govt in eltham nth) seems pretty nice - so i want to apply there.. apps are due on the 11th.. so i need to get going.. i found yesterday.. i spend quite  alot of time that was not very productive... trying to do the application x_O bohah

when today is over... i'll be a little more relieved - time to start stressing for next week's two presentations + maths report + mock interviews :P haha :)

anyhoo

this saturday 10th october = monash philharmonic music festival - at clayton campus - 10-4pm :) come if you like :D there will be quite a few different bands playing :D

ok.. i'm off to class :D

SAT		Sunny. Mild. Windy.	38 km/h NNW	-	46%	19	28
SUN		Sunny. Cool. Dry.	27 km/h W	-	28%	15	23
MON		Sunny. Mild. Dry.	19 km/h WSW	-	26%	13	24
TUE		Sunny. Mild.	9 km/h ENE	-	40%	13	24

even tho

i am going to die when i get back

it is friggin

TWENTY EIGHT (28) DEGREES TOMORROW :D :D :D OH YEAH :D

ok
better
concise version

% to go
English (100%)
Maths (60%)
Pro Engagement (100%)
Classroom relships (60%)

Week 11
Portfolio 50%
Maths presentation 40%
English assignment 50%
Chinese exercises + essay
Monash Phil Festival

Week 12
Maths report 20%
English presentation 50%
Classroom reslships presentation + resource 60%
Mock Interviews (hurdle)

Week 13
Professional engagement Ass 2 50%
Chinese exercises

Time left
Thursday (today) 4.30-5.30pm
Friday - night
Next Thursday - DAY
Next Friday  - NIGHT
bohahism

still in jammies. time to change + tidy up a bit.. and prepare!

agm today!

i've been updating my life as a student teacher at

http://mel-xinyi.blogspot.com/

which is over.

yes

2 days ago - on friday - my final placement ended.

i don't know if i'm relieved or not... it's a strange feeling. weird.

today's been the first day i've had 'off' - i had a meeting in the morning.. i'll have lunch soon.. and then. .i guess i'll need to get organised for the final few weeks of uni.. (oh yay... assignments x_O ... ) 

but right now.

nothing.

:)

i have a LOT to do.. *yes i know* but.. for the next hr. i want to... just.. catch up on other things :)

so.. the schedule.. for the final month or so of my university life~ bohah. enjoy :).. assignments = 40%/50%/60% oh yay

LOTS OF WORK TO DO ! TIME TO START: NOW.

well i haven't updated this one for a little while

been mainly updating the blogspt - with my worries about my placement etc. AHAHA...

well.. i have a phone interview this wednesday with a school - called the hamilton & alexandra college (in hamilton)

it's a pretty small school

they're senior campus (years 7-12) is made up of only 300+ students.. big change from glenny (2000), wellington (1300), mazenod (1000+) << all values are approximate

but yeh.. the school sounds really awesome!!! it's a boarding school too - about 80 students board there.. yes.. Hamilton is a fair drive.. 3-4 hours from here.. or 5+ hours on public transport

but... they said there's accomodation for teachers there too :) i'm excited :) hehe :D
 well... a little nervous too.. but yes...

:)

Position Description	Subject/Duty	School	Apply By	Classn Code
<input ... ><input ... >	English - Graduate Teacher	English	Berwick Secondary College	16/09/2009	GRD
<input ... ><input ... >	Classroom Teacher	English	Melbourne High School	11/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	English Teacher	English	Swan Hill College	11/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Mathematics	Maths	Kambrya College	11/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Mathematics	Maths	Kambrya College	11/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Mathematics	Maths	Kambrya College	11/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Graduate Teacher Program - Mathematics	Maths	Bairnsdale Secondary College	10/09/2009	GRD
<input ... ><input ... >	Graduate Teacher Program	English	Bairnsdale Secondary College	09/09/2009	GRD
<input ... ><input ... >	Classroom Teacher	Maths	Craigieburn Secondary College	09/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Classroom Teacher	Maths	Bairnsdale Secondary College	08/09/2009	CLASS

Mathematics Teacher	Maths	Swan Hill College	04/09/2009	CLASS
<input ... ><input ... >	Classroom Teacher	English	Casey Central Secondry College	03/09/2009	CLASS

ah what to say?

copeage much?

somehow..

i'm still alive.

lesson planning time!

ag man..

where was everyone when the crazy rain happened?

i was waiting at a bus stop... on the opp side to the one i wanted.cos there was a shelter.

i could see one of the students waiting at the stop getting drenched.

then i saw him walk to the intersection

he was waiting there...

i thought he was going to cross the rd or something..

but... he stuck there for AGES

and then.. all of a sudden he sprinted.. and i was like

AIGOO THE BUSS.. and eyah.... somehow we got on the bus

while on the bus... between wellington rd & the freeway.. the CRAZY CRAZY rain/hail/whatever happened

was friggin scary

where were you?

well.. i fell for the evil ness of the chocolates... and ... i died... and chucked myself into choc heaven :(

bohah :(

OK

that's it

NO MORE CHOC 
+
NO ICE CREAM (magnums etc... mcflurries if absolutely necessary are excusable)

+
no hot chips (i've resisted for ONE MONTH.. BRING IT ONNNN -- probly cos i'm not at uni x_O haha)

ok ok

session 4 todayyyyy

it's currently 4.08pm

i have a shizload of things to mark

so ii guess i'd better get started

but


i'm so tempted to go to the office to buy some of those fundraising chocs..

so much for a 'good diet' x_O 

after yesterday's experience . bohah.

hopefully my experience in 10 mins won't be as negative...

after 3 or so weeks of resistance (purchasing a magnum)
i finally caved in.

afterwards i was like

nvm.. i won't have icecream for another 3

but

tonight

my family cooked an apple pie

and my dad called

'apple pie on the table'

i got to the table

and...

my bowl was full of icecream

i feel sick now.

my head feels empty

like

a balloon

that's about to be blown away

tennis in 1 hour

can i make it?